"he had the widest smile on his face, the loudest laugh...wherever he went, he brought joy to the lives of others with his laughter and crazy antics. on the outside, he seemed to be very 'bahagia'..
But....when the crowds leave, he would be in his room, sitting...alone...his mind would go blank...
the surrounding lights just seem to fade off, his room just seems to shrink..."
no..if you thought i was talking about a clown, you're seriously wrong...
"he never understood love, cause he never felt loved...
he never had trust, cause he was let downed too many times...just too many...
he tried to fit in, but never felt welcome...
he tried to attract attention, but that was only temporary..
there was something missing inside...his life was just incomplete...."
"being the youngest in the family, he couldn't relate to his elder siblings as they were to old for him. he couldn't go to his parents for they were too busy with work. he had noone to turn to. even from a young tender age, he had to learn to walk the road of life himself...soon, he realised no one cared about him. it was no use trying to feel self-pity. he learned to put up a strong face and faced the world with a smile, hiding all the sorrows, all the brokenness inside of him."
"no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't fill up the void in his life. and it was getting bigger and bigger and bigger. he turned to relationships... being a person not understanding true love, he fell for girl after girl...everytime he'd be dumped, he would coop up in the dark corner of his room, just thinking...wondering if the girl had actually liked him...if true love existed....if he was just being used again....he just couldn't run away....
one fine day, suicidal thoughts just crossed his mind. he was thinking off ending his problems, his sufferings, his sadness once and for all..."
you'd never imagine...this could be a friend close to you....a happy face may not mean a happy inside....you'd never know the day one of your friends just decide to give in to the pressures and stress of life...many celebrities have done it....you'd never know when depression takes control of their life. just maybe....one day...you may wake up finding your friend asleep for good...
valentine's just passed...its the celebration of love. not just to the person you're dating....not just to your wife...but to everyone...take time out and appreciate the people around you...a hug, a handshake...even a smile could brighten up someone's day... make a change in the lives of people around you..